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Mother, Grandmother, Friend, Health Activist now Health Consumer
On 9 October 2015, following a CT scan, I was confronted with the fact that I had pancreatic cancer and that it had spread. Although I knew very little about pancreatic cancer, I knew enough to know that I had just received a death sentence. I really had no other option but to begin my dance with Mr D. I have decided to write about what is happening to me as a way of processing the awful truth that my life is about to end, and also to help my family and friends share the journey with me in whatever way they choose.

About Me

I am 65 years old, the mother of 5 children and the grandmother of 6 grandchildren. I was fortunate enough to find my work in the world in my late 20s, and for over 35 years I have worked in the women’s health community as a women’s health activist. I believe there is still a great deal to be done to improve the very complex health system that we now have, and I was looking forward to another decade or two of working on it. However, this is not to be.

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Plan B

The hospice team visited me on Tuesday and we discussed options. Their first and preferred option was to admit me to the hospice for 4 – 5 days to sort out my pain management issues and to rehydrate me. But I want to try something else first – as over the weekend I... read more

Pain and Food

Two more weeks of not being able to eat or drink anything without it causing spasmodic pain is taking its toll. The heartburn, indigestion, upset stomach, and gastric pain that follows from swallowing even a sip of water has become more than I can bear. Some nights... read more

How long have I got left?

This is the question that haunts me most right now. It is impossible to ignore. It’s feels a very strange place to be, and this has been heightened over the past week or two as I struggled first to get the pain back under control, and then to work out why I was... read more